Saturday, October 29, 2005 @ 17:12
number one hundred and forty-two
direct opposite of yesterday.
i'm in a rather f***ed-up mood now. and i can't find the reason why. well maybe i can but i don't know why i'm feeling this way.
i've not felt this way since a long time ago. so this is a refresher, a push, the much needed energy to move on and acheive greater things.
but at the same time disappointed. but how can you be disappotinted at something you don't even know for sure? but, i hope my gut feeling is wrong, but i seldom err in gut feeling. so it might be good it might be bad. i'll try and see tomorrow.
hope is the fundamentals on which almost everything lies on, yes. but it is also an ingredient in the destruction bubbling in it. for hope brings about distractions. and distractions kills. it is, crudely, the greatest strengh as well as the greatest weakness of mankind.
i don't think it is time to give up yet. not just yet. because i'm betting on hope to be a strength, not a weakness.
and neither should
you give up.
i think i feel the same way too.
so come on, tell me.