Saturday, March 04, 2006 @ 18:50
number one-hundred and ninety
the day started off with me not being able to swallow anything for a few minutes. before i finally drank some water and my oesophagus reluctantly relaxed. now it's trying to choke me again.
went for fun but didn't run, because if i did i might just collapse and die on the track. don't want to take the risk. so i ended up looking after the bags.
actually i don't want to blog so often, but somethings bugging me, so i'll just blog about it. to the point.
i've not felt this way for a long time already. probably because everythings bottled up inside like the Kyuubi and it's finally breaking loose. and if you watch naruto you would know that if it is released, all hell breaks loose. there's nine tails in all, and i'm perhaps at the fifth.
thei get really pissed off when people say thing that are not true. be it about people i know, things i know, my juniors, my friends and especially about me. usually i close an eye, because it does me no harm. but when things that are sensitive is said, that might affect me, or what i want to do, then i might just lose it. just a word of precaution, don't push me to my limit, because if you do, it won't be just you suffering the consequences.
next. i really really really need to get a grip on myself. i guess it's true afterall, it's not easy to balance. but i'm not willing to be extreme either. it's all in the head. and i'm giving myself a chance to try and balance. i'm doing fine with it now, but this state os not good enough. not good enough for me to become who i want to be.
occasionalwell. life has it's ups and downs. that's what makes it enjoyable. i'll pull through this.
everybody can pull through this.
glances"ascertain my capacity"
so come on, tell me.