Saturday, January 20, 2007 @ 20:25
number two hundred and sixty-four
*brushes dust of blog*
it feels good to get into the water. not just any crummy olympic sized swimming pool with clean, chlorinated crystal clear water. im thinking more towards not-so-clean salt-water with a bit of oil from boats/restaurants/god-knows-what, where your feet cannot even touch the water, water.
kayaking!! a water sport, so it's a favourite. quite rusty, afterall it's been almost a year since we did our one-star course. but it's nice to kayak again.
actually, now that i'm in a totally new environment, it's nice to do many things again. like swimming (training-style), going back to ahs and seeing the ncc guys do their stuff and knocking people down, looking at schoolmates (though some pretend they don't see you at all, sadly), seeing how screwed up boon has turned ahs into. kinda bittersweet.
bitter>sweet. it has to be one of the most difficult emotion to cope with. you're not sure wheter to feel happy or sad or angry. it's just a jumble of feelings all mixed together in those kind of salad bag thingy and flung around.
bittersweet-ness comes about everytime you have to let go of something you hold dear to yourself. but sometimes when you think of it, it's what you've been holing on to that drives you to go that extra distance. to become a better person. so when that time does come, it's not sad, bittersweet rather, because you're thankful.
i've come to learn that it's quite a difficult thing to do. as time passes, it get pushed beneath piles of other tasks to do, but the fact that that something or somebody still is in your mind. and it just takes a trigger to send them bobbing back from the murky depths to occupy your mind.
the heart and the mind are so different. too different.
"what is love?"
so come on, tell me.