Saturday, August 04, 2007 @ 16:59
number two hundred and ninety-nine
it's been a week. :)
it's a bummer when you cant get what you want. i sound like some kid whining about not being able to get a lollipop or something but it's true, it sucks. especially when you're hindered by stuff like eyesight not being within the "good" range of 6/6 to 6/24. i want to dive, but now i'm not sure if i can.
im going for an eye check tomorrow.
hmm, it was a pretty tumultuous friday. the school day was pretty alright, went through the normal friday stuff. then after school there was floorball boys finals where tan yew hwee almost managed to screw eveything up. but we can't really blame the man who can't even keep his wedding ring on his finger and seeks to dampen the mood of everyone around him. i may be unfair in saying this (i don't even know if the wedding ring thing is true but what the heck), but that's just what i think of him. now.
but anyway, we managed to get the thing going on albeit the delay and URSA WON! what a close match, with only a point ahead of pagasus (thus securing our place in the finals) and finally beating aquila by again, one point.
it feels real good to win. to just fight it out and emerge as champions. and as much as one would like to win, sometimes you'ld have to face the facts and be pragmatic. it's not about giving up in the face of imminent defeat, but rather, accepting one's inevitable fate. there's a very thin line between giving up and this, and the region is often greyed. but one's heart and good sense can tell the difference between giving up and admitting defeat. and one would also known if they've given their best to win.
so with regards to our (as much as i hate to say this. it may even be too soon to conclude) downfall, i would like to us the whole lot of you - "have you all given your best? or are you just going to make somebody your scapegoat for not getting what you did not even desire in the first place? only to become jealous when it's in the hands of another?"
im not faultless, but neither are the whole lot of you.
i guess this is the burden that comes along with recognition and/or position. that's the tumultuous part about yesterday. the realisation that hey, look at who you are. and the fact that inevitably, people around you would be affected. don't get me wrong, im not boasting about anything. there are times when i wish that i was just a normal kid. unnoticed, but free.
i hate sounding like that. but i guess it's how i happen to express myself today.
so yeah. like i said yesternight, it's not your fault. we're in this together, and i know that i can count on you. so...thank you, from the bottom of my heart.
what a long post. i think i should stop now and go do some work, although next week is a short one with only 2 school days but hey, i wanna do well for my promos.
bye, till next time.
so come on, tell me.